SIGNS

Some things are different, some are the same. The difference being that I keep forgetting that I'm pregnant! The last 2 times I just thought about it all the time. This time Rob remembers and talks to me about it, but last time he kept forgetting.

Starting to feel pregnant now. I have exactly the same things happening to me this time as I did with Leo which also convinces me even more that it will be a boy.

I have hot flushes, usually after a meal, I constantly feel hungry. I can eat and eat until I feel sick where I am so full, then 20 minutes later I have hunger pangs again. It's a very fine line between feeling sick and feeling hungry. It's so hard not to eat as it makes me feel better but I'm worried about weight gain. I've already put on a few pounds and I certainly look bloated most of the time now.

My belly button is already sticking out so I know I will have the same stomach muscle issue as last time and I am certainly doing all the exercises to help.

I've started to feel rather groggy and lethargic in the afternoon and I struggle to get through it sometimes. It doesn't help that I have so much on right now. Roll on September when I can have my scan.

I have my booking in appointment in 10 days and I filled out the forms today so that's exciting.

Really looking forward to it all now, just fingers crossed that all is well.

TONGUE BITING

I'm finding it really hard to bite my tongue. It's almost as though I feel like it isn't a secret and that it is already out there. Everyone knows and I can just talk about it. I hope I don't let it slip. I keep thinking, what if I just blurt it out mid conversation and see if anyone notices! I saw Charlotte and Sally on Tuesday and I just really, really wanted to tell them. I don't really like keeping it to myself.

I've been thinking a lot about the future and stuff and I'm not really all that worried at the moment. I'm really looking forward to the scan as long as everything is okay and I really do think we would find out the sex again. I don't think I could wait. I'm really impatient and I don't want to put myself through the frustration of not knowing. I'm already convinced it's another boy as I'm getting spots already and everything feels the same as it did with Leo.

My pelvis has already started to click and I am nursing it and stepping up my reps on my exercises. I made my booking in appointment with the midwife today so that makes it even more exciting and real. Especially when you get the yellow book. I'm trying hard to be excited and hopeful but not overly confident. I would be gutted if there isn't a baby growing healthily in there so I need to keep my realistic head on.

Generally I'm starting to feel a tired lull around mid morning, and I can feel things going on like boobs stinging, cramping, feeling hot etc etc. I can best describe it like a warm ball inside, low down. Almost like I'm having a period really. I had the same with Leo but I don't remember with Ellis. With Ellis I just had really, really sore boobs!

So much going on right now! Keeping me busy and occupied though.

HOW FAR?

It's been a few days since I received the positive result and I haven't been able to get it out of my mind. The main reason being that I had Nicky's hen weekend this weekend and I wasn't able to drink! I was a bit worried about how I would get away with it so I had to tell Karen so that she could help me to cover it up. It worked and I'm pretty sure no one was suspicious.

Karen was really pleased and excited for us and it was really nice to have this secret together. Every now and then she would wink at me and I knew what she meant. It was fun. Also on the train on the way to Brighton she was saying about her daughter and niece being pregnant and said that there has to be a 3rd and it needs to be in my side of the family. I just said, yeh must be Kate then! HAHA!

I'm not really having any strong symptoms yet which is fine by me. I am tired but I think that is just from the busy weekend.

I wanted to do measurements and stuff like last time and again, I have no idea how far along I am. The babycentre website says 5 weeks and from my dates I make it 6 weeks today. So I will go with my dates for now until the dating scan.

Not sure when to book my booking in appointment but I better do it sooner rather than later as I'll be busy moving house and stuff.

The weekly pictures are probably going to be taken on Sunday as Rob isn't home on a Monday which is when I would be into my new week. That will change after the scan I expect. I should have taken one yesterday! Doh! Will do it tomorrow when Rob is home and will do my measurements then too. All exciting stuff.

I can't stop watching the video of the test result. Rob's face is so funny. He really wasn't expecting it to be positive!

I expect I will do a few posts over the next few weeks, just putting down my thoughts and anything that is going on with my body. I just keep my fingers crossed that Nugget is in there and growing healthily.

POSITIVE!

TESTING

I don't really know where to start. So many things have been going on. I still haven't come on and I'm on day 37. Of course it is still very possible I will come on tomorrow or even the next day etc but yet again I have totally convinced myself that I am pregnant. I feel pregnant and I've had so many things happen that I believe are symptoms! I'm a crazy person I know and I should have done a test last night but I just couldn't.

The reason I couldn't do a test yesterday is because we decided we will be moving house in 6 weeks and I just didn't want to add to my plate yesterday. But I will have to do one tomorrow as I have the hen weekend.

I haven't had much discharge today which usually means that my period is coming but I will be surprised if it does. Stinging boobs, increased discharge for 2 days before today, crying all the time, niggly headache and I could not stop weeing yesterday and I didn't drink any more than I usually would. It's all coincidental I'm sure and I'll look like a right idiot tomorrow. I have to go and buy another test though as the 2 I have are out of date. I should have just done it yesterday.

PHEW!

Still reading into everything. Had heart palpitations yesterday which I've only had when pregnant, boobs are still stinging every now and then but other than that, I'm not particularly tired and my appetite seems normal.

I seem really calm about it this month though. I expect to come on on Monday and I wouldn't be surprised. Saying that though I will probably end up crying about it all day or something. Which is another thing I've been doing recently, crying at the drop of a hat. Don't really get that saying but you know what I mean.

Have Nicky's hen weekend next weekend. Everyone is soooo excited and I would be more so if I didn't think that I might not be able to drink, not that I want to drink it's just the issue of trying to hide it from everyone.

Just found out my niece is pregnant so if I am this month, we will be due around the same time. We have the same birthday too!

I went to post this entry and then I suddenly realised that I had typed it out on the Top Flumps website! OMG! How could I possibly explain that? Luckily I noticed in time. Phew!

HATE

I hate waiting!

LEG CRAMP

In each pregnancy I've suffered with cramp in my legs. Today I have had cramp on and off and it reminds me of what it was like. Could it be another symptom, along with stinging boobs and being able to cry at the drop of a hat, or is it just my stupid hormones playing tricks on me? Still a week before I find out unless the dreaded blob arrives earlier than last month. I'm on day 29.

I recently found out that a good friend of mine just had her 2nd missed miscarriage. She found out at a scan, ouch! It really isn't very nice and that is now 2 friends, having 2 miscarriages within months. I do obviously think that could be me too, even more this time. I've been so incredibly lucky. 2 positive pregnancy tests and 2 baby boys. Keeping my fingers crossed for a third soon please.

I have really been thinking a lot about if we are to find out the sex of the baby or not. I say and think that I don't really mind what we have. A girl would be lush but a boy would be great too. We wouldn't have to buy a thing for a boy and I have so much stuff! I just don't know if I could wait the whole 9/10 months to find out. I think I would feel very unprepared. Will have to wait and see.

TARGET

Due to the fact that I have been unwell I haven't been eating properly and I lost a few pounds. This morning I got on the scales and I was at target weight of 11st 7lbs. Strangely I wasn't all that pleased as I have now started eating again and I know it will all go on again and I'll be 12st again before I know it. It's up to me I know but I just don't have the will power at the moment.

Boobs still stinging quite a bit. Not my whole boob but just mainly the nipple. I think it's just because my milk is finally drying up and nothing else.

Due on next week ish. My cycle is all over the place, which I'm not used to so I suppose I just wait and wait.